Saturday, December 29, 2007

All I want for Christmas

Christmas has come and gone but the tree is still up. It's the Saturday morning of the 29th and little Christmas cheer is left. The point of the holiday has escaped me altogether and what is left but the feeling that this time of year is supposed to be of great joy and thanksgiving. I am thankful for the things that make my life as comfortable as it is but the feeling doesn't come as easily as one would hope. And the joy that accompanies is in someone elses company. These feelings are easy when you're a child, the responsibility of making sure everyone got their gifts and working extra hours in the cold to make sure we can afford them is joyless. As a child the thrill and excitement of presents made the holiday, I felt as if my family knew what I wanted and loved me enough to get if for me. Granted I had told them explicitly what I wanted so that I would not to have to return it, exchange it, or feign gratitude but the feeling of love was still there. I'm 26 now and the wife and I knew what we wanted months in advance. So, come late October we decide we can afford to get each other the Garmin Rino GPS/2-way radios that we desired so much and bought them. It takes a bit of fun out of Christmas morning when there is one present under the tree and the rest are either opened already, or take the form of cash money. Was this a terrible holiday, not entirely... I got to spend it with my darling wife that I adore spending time with, and we got a fun little camcorder from my father-in-law. But when it comes down to it I miss the childhood Christmas that I once had. Perhaps next year Santa will bring me a bit of the old days. Or maybe I need to not be such a spoiled brat about the whole thing and makes someone elses holiday a little brighter.
On a side-note I wish I were a student or teacher so I didn't have to work so much during Christmas break.